Inside my head my thoughts are racing uncontrollably along with the
voices screaming and shouting demands to do things I really shouldn't
do. I should be punished I don't deserve to live happily. Scars on my
body are the road map from hell since age 12 I've cut at your command.
Whats that--I should be punished for not doing the dishes? I don't do
dishes I guess and now I must pay.
It's so lonely even in a crowded room I feel all alone, strange isn't it? Love to burn bushes and trees so long as no one gets hurt. The flames mesmerizes me into a stance like stare. The violent behavior follows soon after the crying fool leaves and that's when things start to get broken. Whats wrong with me?
Some days I could just kill someone, anyone I'm so angry then I cut and the pressure is released and I can go on for a few hours safely. Scars are my reminder that for 30yrs I've been sick but no one knew it till 1997 when my world collided with mental health professionals. Now I feel like a tagged animal being watched and followed.
pretty strong emotions running through your veins i would say, scars i know what ya mean, i too have scars all over my arms and it has effected my life, didn't think at the time when i was cutting it would even though people would tell me it would, i didn't listen and now i face questions from my kids every now and then. Cruel stares and nasty remarks, being excluded by my appearance is awful but its life for me something i have grown use too even though it hurts each and every day.
i would say just as much as they are a hindered to you, use them to your advantage, support groups, meeting people of similar problems who bear no prejudice. It will get easier and you will come through this, the only downfall is that it takes time.
Anger is such a strong emotion that if we let it can control us, I have anger issues so im told personally i wouldn't agree but pro's seem to think so. Try finding something to vent that anger ie sports, or something.
It's so lonely even in a crowded room I feel all alone, strange isn't it? Love to burn bushes and trees so long as no one gets hurt. The flames mesmerizes me into a stance like stare. The violent behavior follows soon after the crying fool leaves and that's when things start to get broken. Whats wrong with me?
Some days I could just kill someone, anyone I'm so angry then I cut and the pressure is released and I can go on for a few hours safely. Scars are my reminder that for 30yrs I've been sick but no one knew it till 1997 when my world collided with mental health professionals. Now I feel like a tagged animal being watched and followed.
pretty strong emotions running through your veins i would say, scars i know what ya mean, i too have scars all over my arms and it has effected my life, didn't think at the time when i was cutting it would even though people would tell me it would, i didn't listen and now i face questions from my kids every now and then. Cruel stares and nasty remarks, being excluded by my appearance is awful but its life for me something i have grown use too even though it hurts each and every day.
i would say just as much as they are a hindered to you, use them to your advantage, support groups, meeting people of similar problems who bear no prejudice. It will get easier and you will come through this, the only downfall is that it takes time.
Anger is such a strong emotion that if we let it can control us, I have anger issues so im told personally i wouldn't agree but pro's seem to think so. Try finding something to vent that anger ie sports, or something.
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