Am I self harming myself ?

I'm not sure which section to put this in so here it is. I've been browsing the site tonight, crying as I read and it's clear to me I'm so far behind the eight ball to everyone else here. I was diagnosed back in 2010 and I am only now 28. It seems most of you have only recently been diagnosed and progressed markedly. I am still self harming, with today being one of those days. I am so ashamed in myself. I went for nearly 10 months without harming and now it's hit back with vengeance and all because my coping starts. seem lost. I moved in Feb from Victoria to Queensland, Australia which I think is about 2000km or less and since then Ive gone from no meds to heaps of meds in the last month and been hospitalized twice and nearly again last weekend. Ive quit two jobs in my new home and moved already once and soon its going to happen again.

My finances are not good, government financial services are not enough, well they are just but who really can survive under minimum wage these days? And then today I wake up and think bugger it i'm gonna sleep all day and O.D to do so and in the meantime fool, well fool everyone I'm living with (relatives) that I'm just tired from traveling all week. heh what a joke.

Also i have only eaten one meal in nearly one week and that was tonight. i jumped on the scales today and since moving to Qld ive lost almost now 20kg, that is in 3 months ok. Im convinced something is wrong with the scales, someone has put a magnent inside somewhere, it can not be right.

I know on the stress scale, according to those facts above I'd rate pretty high, but I've always tried to handle stress well, not that it ever works well, because it never does. I just don't know how to even thought I have tried stress management. I can always advise others as what to try, even in relation to DBT, CBT, other therapy methods, support groups, anger management, heaps of stuff, but when it comes to myself why cant I help me? It doesnt make any sense to me.

So many strange and wierd things have been going on and if I sit here and type away you will all get bored shitless.
I do keep saying i babble, it's just because i have noone else to talk to about this stuff. My mind does not stop racing. even with the meds. It drives me insane. I've been sitting here in tears writting this stuff and will most of the time I write on this board. So please all I ask is that you give me time and read my thoughts and dont yawn. It worries me that people yawn and I tire them of me.